Is this even normal? And am I forgiving right?

I think your worried about people not liking you. Well guess what? It's good to have enemies, because it means you stood up for something... haha Eminems quote. But no seriously, it's ok if your not friends with everyone you wish to be, because some people just really aren't worth it. Focus on the friends, that you actually like, nd gradually make more that share the same interests as you. You seem like a very caring, and compassionate friend, which goes a long ways in relationships... but remember that you gotta keep that bitchy feminine side with you at times. :)